Have you ever had that one person in your life that truly made a difference in your life, or made that impact? Or even someone who was just there like a mother figure when your own wasn't? I had the opportunity to see my one person I remember clearly in my past. She is an angel. I was just strolling through Facebook and thought about her, so, I looked her up to see if she'd be there. SHE WAS THERE!!! I was so excited. I reached out and she remembered me. Honestly wasn't sure she would because someone that special surely had many kids to remember throughout the years. She did remember me, made me so happy. We made plans to meet up at my home, it just didn't work out. Then we kept missing one another calls. I felt like a stalker for a second.
Well, maybe a couple of weeks went by, and I was on a chat with my therapist. I get pretty raw with what I am feeling, and you only have so much time at one appointment. Needless to say, I was left in a state of really not OK. I was sobbing and I been desperate for help with what is going on with me mentally, I am not getting anywhere. All the research I do in order to fix myself and I feel though I get a lot of support from her, I don't feel I am getting the guidance I am looking for. Honestly, I don't know what exactly what I want from her. At this point I am calling Hamilton center to try and move up an appointment I have to be reassessed with a new psychologist. They couldn't fit me in and suggested that I go to the local center and see someone there asap. In the state I was in I thought that they may commit me. Then messenger ringed in.
It was my person! For her to reach me of all times. I couldn't not answer the phone. So, in the state I was in answer this video call lol. I was a complete train wreck. Here I am playing catch up with her and to why I was in such a state, as always, she has the look to where you know she's listening to you. I was feeling better by the minute as I was talking with her. I was literally at my end at the moment on a down spiral of shit. She brought back so many memories of warmth. I did end up while Agnes was talking to her have a seizure. Embarrassing to have it happen to where she seen on video. In that short hour I think we may been on the phone she was basically caught up.
Out of the blue we are trying to make plans I happen to be going to Terre Haute and was able to meet up with her at Mcdonalds and see one another for a brief minute. It brought back a flood of memories for me. For the most part, it was good. Later after we part ways, it's then I start to remember things how they were back then. I can't help but think that she knew how hard I had it growing up. She was that one person that basically came to my rescue when there was no one. She gave me confidence when I had none, made me think I was smart when school was so hard. When they were giving up on me in school and literally asked me to quit and get my GED, she pushed me to see I could do it if I really wanted it. She helped me get signed up for night school classes and early bird and I was able to get through with my class and graduate.
So many times, I wanted to quit, I didn't belong, felt alone, ugly, stupid, and unlovable. She gave those things to me when I needed them the most. I don't know if she realizes how she really saved my life on more than one occasion. lol literally mom let me go to school so sick with mono, she told mom she would press charges if she didn't come get me to the hospital asap. I would not of made the day at school. I was completely dehydrated. She was a superhero in my life. She helped me be a better person, and always will be special to me.
God Bless You Diana
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